"po po" i muttered, while looking into the coffin.
"i miss po po" i turned to my sister with tears almost blurring my vision.
my heart hurt, but all i could do was stand there and look into the lifeless body laying in there.

i started to reminisce the times when i shared the same room as popo, climbed up on her stomach to sleep when i felt scared and insecured, how much i cried and whined when she wasn't there, popo teaching me how to sing folk songs from china and most unforgettably, patting me to sleep with her ever so patient nature.

i remembered how she looked, always smiling at me with so much tenderness in her eyes and the gentleness in her hands.

popo loved cooking. she used to cook the best tasting food on earth.
popo also loved haw flakes, she enjoyed buying them for her grandchildren and the contented looks on their faces.
sewing was her favourite past time. popo sewed pillow cases and bolster cases for all of us. that is why, pinky is so important to me. pinky is a pink pillow case i had with me since 4- popo sewed pinky for me.

then i thought about how selfish i was.

when popo was still around, everytime there was a chance to visit her, i would give excuses- "i'm busy" "im tired" "i made plans for the afternoon"
i didn't give much of my time to popo and i visited her quite seldom. everything was always about me and not others.
now, there isn't a chance at all for me to see her smiles, talk to her and hold her hands.
when i saw popo laying there all i wanted to say was, "popo, im really sorry"
but does it matter? popo cant hear me anymore.

but i was contented enough to hear that popo is safe, up there with Daddy God.

and i'm sure popo doesn't want to see us cry, popo loves smiles on people's faces.

she was the best grandmother anyone could have ever had.

RIP popo,
i love you.

good things always comes to an end, no?

all the shoppings and outs with my loves, dinings at not so budget jap restaurant, working a same part time job with bestie and late night catch ups with pizza and a bowl of over starchy 2 dollar shark's fin (not) soup, i love the company and not to forget every other absurd events, everything now has to come to a close.
though thankful enough our school reopens one to two weeks after every other schools, but not so thankful because no one enjoys the company of books and a grouchy lecturer in the mornings. no wait......... actually not only in the mornings but for the whole fucking day.

2 days away from school and zero rest . im going back to work in an hour's time.

eventhough working for extra pocket money ate up almost half of my holidays, i still enjoy every moment of it. BRING BACK THE HOLIDAYS PLEASE .

Ubf!!! I miss cha so muchh k. Plzz c' to church soon. And see the little cornerrr done by your dad, v v v well done!!! (L) it. Tomorrow's my hist n's paper. Sighhh I'm so scaree I focus on the wrong topic. (I CAN DO IT).

I just got home from the airport, sent kenny soph and char offf. They left for cebu todayyy. I've been visiting the airport so often, 2 days back it was kennneth. K I reallyyy dont wanna shift to pasir ris and I'm so bored thats why I'm helping you to bloggg. I canttt gett to sleep actually. Got loadssa to tell you but I cant tell you over here 'cause its not v v safe?

I miss you so muchhhhh *.* I shalll try to c' for youth this sat - Im shifting house you seeee. Plzzz take good care of yourself, dont just bother bout earning moneyyy k. I've all the cashhh you neeeddd, don't stress yourself over em. Just lemmme know and I'll write you a chequee in my malibuu barbie sharpay cheque book. Hahhaa. K I've got a joke to tell you too. WILL TELL YOU OVER DINNER OR LUNCH. HAHHAA ITS SO FUNNNY.

K think thats long enough to help you upd8 alreadyyy. You can help me upd8 too if you wantttt c: The email is nylraep_gnoel@hotmail.com and the passworrdd yyou can guesss it. Text me if you want it. I love chuu xoxo. Hang out soon k. Maybellynn's birthday justtt past. I cant wait to see you sex bitch, slut lover <333

/m\ for motivation, and you're the motivation I ever neeedddeddd.

Yessss so sweet of me, goodnight dearieeee. I love you. I'll cudddle you when I see you, gimme gimmmee that high 5.

Nooo waitttt I totallly agreee sept love wass a blastt k!!! We'll have more of that, fo' suree. I cant wait till another sleepover with you. You're suchaaa piggg huhh. Hhahaa. Sleep so early when we were doing the pretty (x190000000) walls. I can only imagineee, my annoying birddd flying around you. Goodnexzzz that was xoxo love. Plus all the videos and our mtv (L) it. The songs were v v enjoyable too. I miss those good o' times. Now N's are hereee. But its ending. 3 more papers. Everything will be over on the 8th. I'll be in pasir ris till then (Sighhh) so I can meet you for lunch or wtvv. DONT PANGSEHHH ME AHHH.

K and plzz dont brood over the sucky f1 job k. I'm sure God has His planss. YOU CAN DO IT. ALL THE WAYYY BABE.

Pearlyn (L) Christina ubf. I'm tcfy ultim8 bestfrs foreverrrr.