only after you are about to lose or after you already have lost someone then it would hit you hard on the head and pierce you in the heart.
only then, it causes you to think, why didn't i cherish her? why didn't i do enough for him? silly, huh? sometimes it makes me wonder, why do we choose to be like that since we have all rights to act, think, speak, with full freedom? given hands, brains and mouth that we own, have we not enough freedom to love, freedom to care, freedom to cherish, freedom to show compassion?
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ubf was admitted to the hospital yesterday, shock the guts out of everybody.
i heard last night from my brother, a question she asked. she said, "if i were to die, i wonder who would cry for me?" pearlyn leong let me answer your question, if you were to go, everyone would be devastated. your energy, your comfort, you, cheering people on when they're tired, your laughters, everything. they make people smile. =) you are important to every single one of us ;) no kidding aye! Thank God for his love and goodness, im really happy you're fine!
. i am down to the deepest and i feel out of this world. why do things you really hate to see happen always have to come true. why do we have to share and what rights have they to take? why do we hate? why do we worry? why do we feel incompetent and why do we like to hurt so much? Go figure!
i'm not a least bit happy about it.
still, forever God is faithful . He's my source of comfort and strength.