first, i'd like to say, its 88 more days to the O lvls! the thought of poly life excites me a whole load, but i'm still not working hard for it. i need some motivation, but i really dont know what will be. :/ i think i need some help over here.
i have been sulking for almost the whole day now, i lost Xa's mummy bracelet. i really don't know where it went. it's just slipped off my wrist without my notice. :/ i miss it dearly.
I WANT MY BRACELET BACK. =( baby, i miss you :(
7:59 AM :D
Monday, July 23, 2007
as sharon shared her woes with me, i realised that it isn't that hard to keep a friendship. it's either you treasure it fully or you screw the shit out of it. being always the kind of "left out", "bullied" and not treated the same as the rest, i too, will feel the same way- hurt. being always having to cope with said person's constant bitch fits i.e- (really being childish, i feel) suddenly getting sick of the friendship and stop talking, waiting for sharon to start before she will, going out as a group of friends and excluding her, outcasting her for having a group of guy friends that said person hates.it's anal, obviously childish, no?
well let's see what happens next. said person decided to SUDDENLY disappear in to thin air, shy away from us, decided to avoid us and made us realise there was a problem by just deciding to sit somewhere else away from us. like WOW? and yada yada yada and friendship is broken.
well said person, if you think you're right, i think not. you got the wrong infomation, made the wrong move, you trusted the wrong people, hurt the wrong friend, scolded the wrong friend, got sick of the wrong friend. and everything that's taking place now, it's all because of you and your childish, bad attitude. if i'm wrong tell me. if i'm wrong, please tell me why so many people hate you. no, they don't hate you. but they hate your damned attitude.
sharon was constantly reminded to not have someone like you as a friend. but tell me why she could bear with all your annoyance and didn't stop loving you as a friend, tell me why she held on so tightly to the friendship, and tell me why she never blamed you. that's because you can't bloody see that she treasured the friendship so much. and you chose to let her down. i didn't see any flaw in her and i don't see a reason why you did. you know this better, who started these and why people hate you. continue doing this, and that's it with everyone for you. think again.
5:04 AM :D
Sunday, July 22, 2007
after eons of finding time slots for transformers at the theatres, Xa and I STILL haven't got to watch the dumb show yet. either the timing wasn't right, or the right timeslot was full. maybe i'll only get to watch it when the dvd is out :/ .
and now, thanks to the o lvl's and to Xa's hectic fencing training schedule, our meet ups are limited to only once a week. thumbs down! i need o lvl's to pass quickly. and i need to pass it well. exams are around the corner and my bloody mind is still on holiday mode. what's more, the prep exams starts this week. can you say, wow?
i'm really anticipating the future. sounds extremely exciting. on another hand, i think i better not hope too much first. but Xa says, he will buy an estate near orchard in future. i want to share my life with him. XA, SEE THIS? yes, i really want to. i hope it never goes away.
6:11 AM :D
Monday, July 16, 2007
there's something that i am dying to overcome. it's kind of annoying how the stupid o lvls can worry me to death, but i just don't start studying. along with the constant sacarstic remarks which i'm so sure, actually, for the purpose of my well being the "mei, you're going to ite after sec 5 arh?" sentence, (either that, or i'm deluded that somehow my brother still cares for me.) i'm already half dead from worrying. still, that doesn't push me to study. i wonder what can.
baby, harry potter was great, suntec was magnificent, bowling was even better! i LOVE BOWLING NOW HAHA. thanks for everything! I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND
2:19 AM :D
Sunday, July 08, 2007
okay. i know this post is random. but i would like to bomb what i feel right now.
i would just like to say, XA, thanks for changing for me in a few ways. for "putting aside your temptations and setting your goals right" :P for trying not to be lazy and everything else. thanks for putting up smiles on my face and making me happy. i hope this can continue a long way.
and as i'm typing this, sometimes i hope to feel more treasured. i love to be sweetalked to. and everything else that's nice. i want to melt your ice and break your hardness. I LOVE YOU.
(okay, those who can't bear with mushyness you can puke now =)
12:39 AM :D
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
i've been and keeping my anal ways by thinking (alot lately) so hard about what someone had that i do not. on a second thought, i finally realised that comparing yourself with others is a childish thing to do. although it's inevitable that you may feel that it's really unfair at times, comparing THE PAST, its extremely stupid.
So now, i've made up my mind. no matter how, boy, you have already given me the basic necessities to a relationship- love, care and understanding. need i ask more? besides, what's there more to compare. i guess i'm contented enough like that. =)