you dont have to be an adult to be all grown up, i just ain't that matured. you dont really have to care because you feel like it, but that's just not me. you dont have to cry when you feel hurt, but i'm just not strong enough. i cant be a 100%.

i lay down on my bed and stared at the picture of me, and i wonder if it really was me. and then i thought about my world. it has a beautiful facade but contradictory in the inside sometimes. which concludes- i'm empty. everything seems forgery. i just want to rest my head on something real.


THE WORLD, MY SURROUNDINGS AND EVERYTHING THAT TRIES TO PLEASE ME SEEMS SO FANTASTIC. BUT I CANT SAY THE SAME FOR MY DAMN MOOD.

SCREW EVERYTHING ON THIS FRIGGIN PLANET.

--- sounds so beautiful, looks so convincing. but its only surreal. i know i'm that insignificant.

I. AM. SICK. REALLY. SICK.
i'm still wondering if a dengue mosquito bit me. because 1) i HAD fever. (that doesn't mean it wont come back. and 2) i'm having diarrhoea, and i'm not sure if it's a syntom. 3) i think i'm having sorethroat now, although maybe it's because i tried grunting too much in class yesterday 4) i lost my appitite for food. 5) i feel quite queasy. and 6) i have a few bites at my back. of all places.

i'm GONNA SERIOUSLY HIT THE SACK. GOODNIGHT.

the mid year exams are underway and it is no surprise that i dont come online to blog often. i mean, i do come online, but my fingers feel lazy all the time. (well, i shouldnt anyway. but hell, the computer's really tempting.) for today, it's special, since im waiting for a phone call now i shall keep myself awake! =)
Alot of things happened. both in reality, and inside of me. it's a bloody chaos.

somethings should be better left unsaid. that said, i really do hope you'd know how to think more for yourself.

it's no use saying that you're no good and never changed.


thank God for DD, for the smiles he never fail to bring me. =)) (dont be too honoured when you read this). he's my kai xin guo. ha

yes, like i said. midyears are underway. prelims next, then o's. i cant wait to get into poly even though im not a least bit sure if i can even get in one HAHA.

yes, midyears. and tomorrow's gonna be my math paper. NIGHTS.

SCREW BLOGGER.