Thursday, August 31, 2006
im really unsure. and i feel an extreme discomfort. infact, i guess vendetta and unfathomable hatred has been victorious or rather, over conquering my mind recently. or i should say, it has been accumilated over moments. i sure wish i could make do with some violent action. i wish i was'nt that soft. i just wish, i had to ability to beat you up. and i wish, i could skin you alive. it was'nt until i suddenly remembered what i was told, an oath made. and it just, wasnt until i realised i was duped. oh, what a white lie. so clear, i could just conveniently see through it. and what a fukin` falsifier. i should have known. christina, what an ancient dope.
hmmm. teachers' day eve in this darn school, has always been a "special" event for our school ever since that bald headed monkey look-a-like person stepped in. know what's so special? know what benefits PRCS students get? the only possible idea that could come from an almost moronic person is that we get to enjoy a full day at school, having lessons as normal. not only that, we get extra previlege to get to stay back in school for remedial. whao. how festive can this day get eh? darn that monkey ass. AH WHATEVER!
shouldnt bring up anymore unhappy craps. speaking about electric guitars just makes me feel so happy. it's like im embraced in a world of guitars. and i just wanna fly up high with it. i saw this model Ibanez SZ320. its extremely hot. and i have decided on getting it (that's if i am able to get money) its $720 but its just all worth it thinking that i could embrace it all i want after its mine. plus the amplifier and everything. i makes up a grand total of about $800-900++ . the digits can make my eyes jump out of their sockets. but i dont mind it :) I JUST WANNA HAVE IT! :D my mum has already approved on me getting an electric. however, the next problem is, how do i get that much amount of money!?!?! all i can do now is to hope that handsome ol` darling SZ320 will be in my arms with a blink of an eye HAHAHA :)
- i wish i could carry your smile in my heart for times when my life seem so low ; i'd just like to see you soon-
4:08 AM :D
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
hmm.. thinking about the past, i remeber i knew this guy, or rather, i knew this fag. he was and still is single, available but the most important thing is that he was unwanted. this made him so deprived and so depressed after looking at others being blissfully together, he had to go to the extend of wreaking someone's relationship by shooting venomous, hypnotic words in order to fufil his longing for that about the other party. you get the point? bitching is his daily routine. he get all squashed up and he'll rot if he doesnt do that. well, the truth really is that, he doesnt really know the person well enough the even spit a comment about that person. also, he must be thinking that he's so great and perfect to the point that he always have to judge people. and then go whoring about others. when actually, he is'nt a wee bit perfect. basically he doesnt understand the meaning of the words "admit defeat". cause just when he thinks he's o-so-great-and-perfect-and-just-so-undefeatable, he'll find himself in a sorry state (there's always others better than you) and when this happens, he'll continually lie to himself by giving excuses to make him "look good" again. also, he tries real hard to look matured both mentally and physically (and he thinks he's real matured) his actions proves otherwise. they have to always give him away huh? oh, what a waste yea? and yes. he bitch about his friends too.i mean, yes, he cant shut his trap for once. not even for his friends. like, what a low life loser.
okie i had my fill bitching about others too. now its finally time for me to start real blogging. hmmm. yes, i was real bored yesterday. and i finally found some people i could go out with. initially, only for lunch. but told kl to accompany me to tm (since he have to be there for dinner with his friend) to buy some guitar picks. and i got one transparent and one glow in the dark! HAHAHA. neway after that kl asked me to join them in cafe cartell for dinner. since he's paying, why not! HAHAHAHA so i went with kl to meet seng loong as it was his birthday yesterday. and kl actually wanted to celebrate it with him. but i went there to get free food and also, being an extra HAHAHA i had soft shell crab and prawn combo! and my tasted the best! the 3 of us give a little of some of our food to one another and i had to best food! HEHEHE! neway i enjoyed yesterday real much! ending a post without some colours is boring! so here are some pictures we took!!!
to start it off, let's introduce the birthday person, seng loong.!!!
that's me and kl! :D nono what im wearing round my neck is not a heart shape la. its a guitar pick! aiyoh kukubandung
just so contented when we got a plush seat! :D
i forgotten what's its name. but its sure a 100% guaranteed extraodinaryly munchilicious brownie!
chiong arh!! (: (:
the drink is too good to be true too! hmm hmm!
camera really does wonders! (thats me!)HAHAHA
and MORE wonders (that's kl) HAHAHAHA
and.... spastic wonders... (seng loong thinks this is funny) but at the first look of this picture i nearly spit out the water i was about to gulp down in my mouth! and zhi yong told me he wanted to vomit. HAHAHAHAHAH camera really does wonders!
and pig-like wonders. (seng look thinks this is funny too) HAHAHAHAHAHA omg.
yeap! had a real fun and yummilicious day!! woot! :D
ahh! im bushed. so smart of me to think of making cookies for my teachers for teachers day tomorrow. what now. im not even half way done and yet im really extremely tired. and at my wits of giving up LOL. ahhh. nvm. leave the rest aside. but since this is my VERY FIRST attempt in making a cookie or worst still, with no help or assistance, i hope they dont eat and die. HAHAHAHAHAHHAA. oh pretty pretty please
okie! i think i had enough of blogging for today! till then :D
-please come back here. to make me wanna look into that eyes-.
11:33 PM :D
Monday, August 28, 2006
well, for the FIRST time im my entire life, i wish i was at school. cause im really bored death. going to school would be better. at least you can talk when you feel like it. but if i wanna talk when i feel like it now, my maid might think that im some psycopath. AHH. AHAHAHAHHAHAHA and for me, i'd really die anytime if no one's there to accompany me to play or something, i'd seriously die anytime. for example, now. i'd better go date someone out before i really suffer from depression.
woot! i found an amazing deal!!!! an ibanez jumpstart pakage with - Ibanez GRG270 electric guitar, Ibanez IBZ-10G Guitar Amplifier (10 Watts), Ibanez Electric Tuner, Ibanez Standard Gig Bag- Ibanez Guitar Strap, Ibanez Guitar Picks, Ibanez Accessory Pouch at a COOL price of $580!!!!!! AHHHH. i'll save up. yeap. jg said, by the time i save up, i'd be very good at playing the guitar already! yeap! by the time! WOOT i'd be really happy. i swear i'd buy it! YAYYYYYYY!
ALRIGHT ALRIGHT! i'd go now! till then! yay! im happy!! =)
-seeing your presence slowly dissapear, makes me get stucked deep in a abyss of distress-
10:21 PM :D
church is'nt as FUN as usual.. you get the hint, im being an ass (oops) yet again. but yeah gab, seriously. this is where i grew up from and the people i grew up with, i'd never leave this church. :) although yes, the distraction is OVER ANOTHER CHURCH. like.. over there.. like a far away land at somewhere round` the south (thanks gab) hahahahaha. and although I SERIOUSLY WANNA GO THERE ,no. we are all here and yes, we all hope the cows can start running home. especially me, that is. HAHA
ok, scratch. neway, so much for the "look at the night sky tonight there will be 2 moons. one will be mars and the other will be the real moon" emails and messages were circulating around. its like truly, stupid. if its really a lie. because, yesterday night at around 11+ come 12, all of us (gab, shawn, ian, zhiyong, jonan, my bro and myself) went down to pasir ris park to wait for bird droppings from the sky at night. we keep looking up the sky as if something phenomenal was going on up there. and woot! the sky was red all of us (you know, deluding ourselves) were all fascinated by the red sky. "wha, this is not normal man.. the sky is red!! im sure mars is soon coming out la! quick walk to a spot without the trees covering leh" 12 o'clock passed, we were still looking up the sky. 12.10 passed and we were STILL looking up the sky with no signs of mars. (there was'nt even NORMAL MOON in sight fyi) 12.20, and then finally 12.30 which mark the end of the ROYAL appearance of mars which every one was awaiting for. but no, it didnt even show up. but we didnt quit. we still poke our nose up high. and finally, when we decided to stop waiting for the impossibles to show up. we decided "this must be a mistake! it must be an eclipse, or maybe it was calculated wrongly. maybe if we stayed longer mars will come out. no such thing as they say it will come out and it dont. it MUST be a mistake, a calculation error! maybe it will be one hour later or something like that. or maybe it is the 12.30 midnight of the next day of 27th or something like that. or maybe.. its at the north, south, or west part of singapore... but no. if we stare up at the high sky, sure the whole singapore can see one what. " and maybe... we should finally resign to fate. and when we did, "aiyah! gab, you call up BBC news ask them what are they trying to do. say the mars will come out but it didnt." HAHAHAHA. and in the end, we finally gave up hope. thank God uncle eric fetched us home!guess it was just a darn stupid mail to purposely catch the attention of gong people (like us HAHA) to really fall for it. AH DARN and we finally reached home disappointed, at 1+ what a waste of time argh!.
yay, finally the time for me has come to strum on an electric! i played zhi yong's electric yesterday night and i sure had fun with it! HAHAHAHAHA. then i told my dad "dad, its finally time to get an electric for me as i'd be playing for the church soon (that's the only way)" and then he went "you master your guitar well first then when you get your guitar then it'll be very good" so i'll take that hint that you'll get for me one electric eh? HAHAHAHAHAA woot!
alright alright, i'll have to go now! tml is chem paper!!!! yay! =) so, i'd have to go study now! (having in mind that i haven even start my revision. oops!) so.. till then!
-i hope the cows run home soon!-
10:17 PM :D
Friday, August 25, 2006
darn! always gorging on moutains of food everyday, like i haven eaten for years, i FINALLY realised i've really grown fatter. shit. eat eat and eat and now, i see layers of TRUE fats bulging out like layers of tires. crap. i should have known. lol, muo gu, you can stop duluding me futher now HAHAHAHAHA. SHIT i've really grown huge horizontally and i realised my -run-for-1-hour-non-stop-2-times-a-week-during-the-holidays plan is still far away. yes, the holidays are still really far away, and at the rate i am going, i'd soon burst like a balloon. or maybe i'd appear in the jean yip slim down show and they'd be honoured to help me advertise my lumps of fats to everyone. and thank God, i have a honest bro, sis and dad. "eh, your growing fatter day by day can? you can like start going for jogs already" aww, that's bad.. yes, i'll find time to go running, i really will (oops) xD
hah. papers today like totally screwed up can? now maths paper two was REALLY tough. and i dont get why many people told me it was a piece of cake. HAH. alright alright. i know im dumb. HAHA and english paper was not that bad la.. but the results thats gonna come out? i really dont know HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. YES YES YES! a few more papers to go and then... wipee!!! PRELIMS are over. but shut up, N lvls are coming. ahhhh ok enough. lets not talk so much about studies.
my ah gong is being warded in the hospital. and hasnt woken up since he was admitted there. my dad said that he might not be able to make it. i hope he'll be able to pull through.. i wish that i could turn back the clock so i would have been able to spend more time with him.. and i really hope my ah gong will pull through! :)
alright alright, i think i should stop talking now.. so, till then!
-if i could look in that eyes-
3:28 AM :D
Thursday, August 24, 2006
dumb internet. spent hours trying to connect to the internet. i would have already smashed the com by now if it really drove me crazy. ARGH. neway, i had my fill at sissy's birthday yesterday! mummykins bought loads of food. because 2 of sissy's friends we're invited to join us in the celebration, since they're already at our house actually, to watch animes HAHAHAHA. my sis got loadss of presents. and almost the whole school knew it was her birthday. cause she was carrying mountains of plastic bags filled with presents into the lecture theatre and everyone was staring as her with screwed up faces. HAHAHAHA! neway, my sis got a real huge pooh bear helium balloon and i guess, im already a little attached to it. now i hold on it everytime i walk around the house xD. so, yes. it's quite mine. HAHAHAHA
hmm.. lets see.. chinese paper down, humans paper down, physics paper down, english and math papers down. ahhh! so many down!! just a few more to go!! yipee! yay! physics paper was'nt so tough i think i can make it ahh! i feel so relived! and as for geog, super christina completed it within 20 mins!!!! (basically because i ticam ticam :D) HAHAHAHA! the paper is faeces! i dont even understand the questions! but im glad its all over! ah! im taking english and math papers 2 tml! lemme say.. i'd study real hard for it tonight! :D
hmmm. basically there's nothing much to blog about today. just that blogger, too, is starting to seem attractive! because other than blogging, i do nothing but watch anime! well, i can really say that goeg paper today was quite.. disastrous.good game christina :D
alright im really tired! shall go pig now! till then :D
-your presence seem to have disappeared. and i know you're no where near.-
1:43 AM :D
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
hah. managed to grab some knowledge in my head yesterday night. yes, its true i had to burn midnight oil. but i guess its all worth the while. but hell, i thought the math paper was really easy. but when i checked my answers with all my friends. i got most of them wrong. for about 3 questions, i found out i only got 1 right. sigh. and that makes me really worried. to think i assumed the paper was a piece of cake. it was really such a let down. however, i think there's a good 60% chance for passing the paper... i guess. HAHA! hmmm.. english was low kick. HAHA nah.. for the essay writing i could'nt think of much things to write. the question was something like "talk about a bully who got a taste of his own medicine" i wrote quite ridiculously about how this small fry got back at the bully to have the taste of his own medicine. lol. i guess it'll either be a fail or a borderline pass. but neway, its a narrative. any minds can run wild in narrative writing i thought? HAHAHAHA section 2 was not as tough. i read up on balanced diet yesterday night so writing about maintaining a healthy lifestyle was'nt a problem. we were told to write a speech. now, what was the best? i always had my reg no. as 1 since primary school. and you get to have a quick glance of your classmates paper when the teacher starts counting the papers on your desk.heh. the same thing happened today and i saw kl's paper. it was the funniest! HAHAHAHAHA in writing speech, he ended with yours sincerely khang leng. imagine going up the stage giving a speech you'll go "good morning principal, teaches and fellow school mates i am khang leng from sec 43 and today... yada yada yada yada.. yours sincerely khang leng. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i seriously laughed like hell when i saw his paper. LOL kl, joker la you. well, that's also the result of refusing the study eh?
neway, tomorrow's physics and geog. HAHAHAHAHA i'd study physics later. as for geog, forget about it :)) HAHAHAHAHAHA i have never passed geog ever since secondary one no matter how hard i studied xD (although i always resign to fate and go to bed half way reading. but yep at least i made the effort to study what :S) so now, i decided to totally give up on that subject and concentrate on more important ones. should spend my brain cells wisely. HAHA. nah, it's just that im really bad at remebering things. so, resigning to fate would be best. :D
well, i've been studying physics ever since the week before. and i guess i have just a few more chapters to go. YEAP. I CAN DO IT! :D other than physics, i woundnt want to think about any other subjects. because... today's my sister's birthday!! and all i seriously can think of right now is the luxurious spread of food on the table! woot. thinking of it makes my stomach noisy. :D i cant wait! evening, quick come!!
and yep! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!!! HAHAHAHAHA
well to end this post, i would like to say, of all my fifteen, coming sixteen years, i've never came across A JACKASS like YOU. yes YOU. and i swear every word visible in this sentence is every word that seriously comes right from the bottom of my heart.
okie, anime time! till theN! :))
-yes, i really miss you so. and if i were just be able to see you just once more, i'd already be at the top of the world.-
3:00 AM :D
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
hah. im back. back from dreamland! i thought that i could wake up on time to do revisions for math and english essay writing but heck. i overslept. im such a pig. ^(00)^ (piggy face) now look at the time its exactly 9:19 and yes, im blogging!! :)) i'll go back to the books after this. ahh. now i really feel the sense of urgency. yes, i need to study. i'll pass my exams. and not forgetting my N levels. i'll pass all of them. well, not all. but i'll pass the 3 subs. i'll get 10 or lower. yes i will. well, talking to my sis really makes me feel so stupid HAHA. getting an award from secondary school for getting 5 distinctions, having her name imprinted on the rectuangular piece of.... er.. thing.. is my sister. and i went asking her "jie, is getting A1s possible?" and she went "like duh..getting A1s in secondary school is very possible la" ok. that made me feel low. HAHA i should have asked my bro, and maybe his answer might make me feel better. xD you get the hint, he's not good in studies too HAHAHAHAHA. maybe talking to him might make me feel better. cause i think we're at the same level of intelligence HAHAHAHAHA :P. (so much for calling me stupid last time eh, bro? im getting back at you now. heh heh heh)
well, im starting to worry. cause im still not half way there yet (in preparing for my exams) although ive been studying, really. recently. but, yes. this is what i call, so much to do, so little time. sigh. yes. im stressed up. i think for the first time? till the extend that i told my parents to "stop scolding me, im having so much stress and you're doing this" and i cried. yes. i cry for basically everything. but one thing for sure, with every tear that rolls down, i feel each sharp pierce in me too. tell me, who wants to cry like some idiot infront of other people. i'd really rather lock myself up and cry all i want. it's embarassing. but i know for sure. yes, every tear means everything to me. some people cry and self-pity but for what. like people would pity me.let alone, my parents. HAH. yeap. im having much stress and my parents adds to the stress at times (with other problems in mind) and sometimes, i really do suffer from minor depressions. its better now, im better now. i mean, i feel better now that my parents treat me like a princess. obviously cause im such a good gal. HEH (too much of leongish influence eh leongish? :P) nah. just jk. HAHA
oops. i guess i got too carried away till i talk about crying. the feeling of getting some one you really dont know into trouble for your constant blurness just makes me wanna knock myself on the head. some of us were in the gym today for PE. so many people were sitting around and lazing about, well, including me. when i stucked my head out of the window, or rather i look out of the window, i saw him. that was mr neo our PE teacher! when he saw me, he immediately asked me if "bengimin and darell is sitting down"(guys from sec5) they're sec 5s and how am i supposed to be sure if those to guys were bengimin and darell? and well, i think i know who they were but.i didnt turn back, but i was hell sure that when i walked in, the went out. and i said "yeap" and i realised i said something that came out of my mouth without a second thought " and i immediately said to mr neo "ermm. actually no, erm im not sure" again, not thinking before i speak. but that would have been a better answer to "save" them from the worst ever punishments. but heck! mr neo didnt realised. and i think i got them into trouble. shit. im such an ass.
but yeah, i got my friend to help me apologise to them since he is closer to them :) ahh. neway better get back to my books! it's late! :) till then!!
-and if you didnt know, i really miss you so. i wish i could see you soon, once again. just once. i'd be most contented-
9:22 PM :D
Sunday, August 20, 2006
back! from church. church now is like.. never as fun as before. more like now going to church is not exciting anymore.no motivation to lah.. yeap. (people go when you never want them to) gab, you know what i mean :P. but yeap, its His will. and somethings are just meant to be. when you can never see them again, you start to think. "why did'nt i take the chance to talk to him when i had the chance to" kinda really dissapointing, but yeap. gone is the word. he's gone. (hope i bump into you maybe sometime later xD) now during church service, sermon time is spent talking to jo. outside the lobby. that'll be better i guess :))
ah. shut up christina. acting like some lovesick freak isnt gonna bring you no where. ok, im happy! :) even though im kinda sad too. but im happy because charmian hired me to be one of the guitarists in what club?? shit what club is that? forget it. till i remember i'll blog it in again HAHA. IM MEGA HAPPY(yes, but sad). because if i were to be one of the guitarists, i get a taste of strumming on an electric! WOULDNT IT LIKE MEGA RAWK? HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY! weeeeeee~! im strumming on a guitar, dont know when i'll be back again! HAHAHAHA YAY!
yay! prelims are 3 days away! and im not prepared! :) I'LL BE SOON! HAHHAHAHHA hope i get to pass. or else good game for me. thanks. :)
alright, im extremely tired. gonna pig away! till then!
-didnt know you'd be gone forever.and i miss you so?-
12:28 AM :D
Saturday, August 19, 2006
new skin for a new....? ah whatever i cant think of anything that rhymes with new skin for me. HAHA nvm. new skin for my new frenzy :P HAHAHAHAHA yes yes. im going ga ga over guitars now. should'nt have learnt it eh?. guess i play my guitar more than i study. oh obviously i do. cause i seriously wanna play it as professionally as... GAB! :) dont even have to see the chords can play can?? wah lao. not fair. aiyah. guess i can like never be like you eh gab? cause basically, you have the natural talents. and like that extremely not fair eh. (you see. he knows how to play ALL the instruments in church :D) BAH.! not fair. not fair. really not fair. i really wanna play the guitar as well as you.
ok scratch that. neway, my new skin!! MY new skin. MY VERY OWN!!! :D yay! with guitars!! hehe i made this skin for MY own use!! :)) with a little help from my sis, with the inspirations from whilpoolriding, and with the images from fret12! HAHAHA im happy!! woohoo!! (although clifford said its really easy to do. go die la you HAHAHA) aiyah. of cause i'd be happy la. for a html lousiness like me. even being able to succeed making a blog skin makes me go woopededo! yay!
ok shut up la. there's nothing to boast about. :( neway. i've done my dnt folio and submitted it. now im dnt free and anti-dnt!! WOO! and now, getting down to real intensive studying xD (look whos talking) right leong? HAHHA prelims are next week. and starting to feel the ungency to really study!! :D (HAHAHAHAHA even my toes are laughing). alright. but this is true. im really stressed up. for N lvls! GAHHH! so, i really need to feel the urgency to study. yes. and i will! :)
alright. once again late for guitar! see ya soon!!! :))
-where'd you go? i miss you so-
2:24 PM :D
Thursday, August 17, 2006
ahhh.. back from.. school? HAHA. i did'nt attend school today. was harworkingly (oops) doing the darn darn dnt since morning. like what the hell. dnt take so much of my time can?. even looking at more dnt really makes me wanna kill myself. (and i thought dnt was the best and easiest combi) but no, christina. you're such a stupid stupid person. you always have to bluff yourself eh? find pleasure deluding yourself. like stop it can? ok shut up. you don't have the rights to shoot your mouth about here. AHH. ok stop. im acting like some split personality freak, wth.
ok scratch that. recently, dnt have really been haunting me alot. from night till morning. giving me so much trouble, wasting all the dear time in the world. i don't have so much time to live doing dnt ok? i even had to skip school today and get nightmares when i got back to sleep. i dreamt that my mum came home, saw me at home and not at school and i was kinda.. freakin`ly dead. look how dnt had affected my darn life. i'd think dnt, dream dnt, talk dnt, do dnt and....eat.. dnt? and soon, gonna have the darn dnt sickness. like wth can?. wadever. the main thing is my life now revolves around dnt and i DO NOT have much time to think abt daily whatevers but i still am. gawd. tell me how i should servive.
well, let's talk about love, part 3
HAHA. talking about love everynight makes me seem as if im one darn lovesick ass (oops). :))
and what now? people are starting to be so stupidly in love, they are starting to think as if the world belongs only the both of them. be it les-es, faggots, and normal couples. no please, time to wake up already alright? and sometimes. people just dont treasure who they already have. looking at the nicks of couples sometimes makes me feel so.. kinda like.. feel a little pissed off with them. you take much efforts and pains to find the two of you blissfully together. and then, after awhile you start getting sick of each other and you quarell when you're together, you wanna find trouble with each other when you're together. sometimes, you stupidly ask for a breakup just to get the other party's attention. and you just, stubornly dont treasure who you're having beside you. and sometimes, you dont give a flying fuck (oops) to the ones that treasure you most. when you say you treasure some one, once again like bloody mean it can? dont go saying :oh, i seriously treasure you alot, i'd give my all to you. i'd give you my life and even my teddy bear, my pillows or whatnot, if you seriously dont mean it. once again, like just.. screw off and also, killing yourself might be a better alternative. :) the point is, seriously, go treasure the ones that love you most or rather are already beside you. be it your boyfriend, girlfriend or spouses. treasure the time spent with each other and like just treasure them before they're like gone. dead. or something else. i dont know what. so yeap, before its too late! :))
yay. done blogging! i'd be able to like write a book soon if i continue on blogging like that HAHA. nahh. jkjk :)) ok, its time to have my dinner! im MEGA famished! :) i'd eat you if you're here! HAHAAHHA
5:51 AM :D
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
i was too lazy to post. but i think i need some release of the thoughts in my mind, so in the end, i'd like just post yeah. but seriously speaking, there's nothing much i can publicise here. HAHA cause all will be kept right in there. :)) >> <3>(this is a heart shape fyi) HAHAHAHA. but then again, i so feel like blogging. and at times, you'll just have to talk rubbish in order to fill up the post. and that's exactly what im trying to doright now. :D
hmmm. i know what to talk about. lets talk about love again :) HAHA yesterday was a summary. cause my bro was rushing me. and today, i have all the time in the word to talk about love as long as my parents are'nt back from dreamland. :))
well, like i said. everyone will go through a piece of crap in life. for example, losing a loved one. it's defo. i mean its really inevitable sometimes. HAHA. no matter how much you wanna stay on together, once it's not fated. then kiss goodbye to that relationship of yours. like just.. quit. hmmm. what's the meaning of the words "i love you" ? could you just say it when you like it, like just say it for fun and stuffs?, say it for the sake of saying it when it's seriously time to be serious? i mean, if someone does this to you, just go poke the person in the eyeballs and let him/her slowly bleed to death. these words " i love you " are so often used people are almost saying them without meaning it. they undermine the word by using it so freely. and really soon, these words will lose it's genuiness and eventually people will think these words are just simple yet meaningless words. saying "iloveyou" means a great deal to someone who really appreciates these words whole heartedly. but when you just wanna say it and dont mean it. just shut up and screw off. and like seriously, killing yourself and making your presence disappear might be a better alternative. well als, i agree with you too. when its time to be serious, i'd like to say these words "iloveyou" and really mean it. i just wanna say, people, when you say "i love you" really mean it or you'll hurt the one who treasures you most :)).
ahh. darn.. tomorrow's the real deadline for the N levels dnt folio. but know what? i totally forgotten about developing my photos for the evaluation part and the result? i guess the only way out is to like pon school tml (oops xD) and complete my folio at home then go back to school when school ends and the gates are open and just sneak in to pass up the folio. yup! that'll be my plan. but i hope it'll go the way i planned HAHA. fyi im ponning school for a reason!! :D cause i promised not to miss school for no reason HEHEHE.
alright, back to dnt! :) till then!
9:17 AM :D
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
its 9+ and i got home not long ago. doing dnt is really no joke. haha. stayed in school from 2+ (self study period) all the way up till 8+. gawd. and yet, after all that plus minus 6 hours of doing work in the dnt room. im not done with it yet. ARGH. amendments have to be made here and there. time and again. all mr chang's fault. told me to do this and that and i followed exactly. and what he said a few moments later? "why you anyhow do?? this one wrong lahhh.." mr chang, do you need a box on your face? HAHA. but kind hearted mr chang treated us to snacks :)) but still, we're more fotunate than the art students who are still slogging away in the art room in school, this very moment. poor things. HAHA
okay. let's talk about love. HAHAHA
walked back with mr ford after dnt thru central. and we , both of us saw a man and a women sitting on a bench. the women was crying really really bad. holding real tight to the man's hand, and she seem to be like begging him.. for what? of course we do not know. haha. but, the man, seriously didnt seem to care. looks so hard hearted. how she feels i do not know. but, i sure pity her. so both of us assumed it was a break up initiated by the feller. yeap. im sure, everyone will face the cruelty of losing a love one some how or other, now or later i guess everyone will experience something really hurting, get over it and then learn from it. i mean. life's like that. and then clifford told me, which i think is really true, that, no matter how hard you try. no matter how much you hate that person who hurts you, no matter how much u feel like commiting suicide, no matter how much you wanna get back at the person, no matter how much you wanna kill that person, there's no point. cause once the person is gone, he/she seriously gone. yeah.. no point clinging on to what's not there. living in a world of delusions is as bad too. get a life and move on. yeap. its really really true. haha. and also, i guess every breakup has it's reason. no point staying on together when one or both party/parties are not content. yeap, we'll all have to face the inevitables in life. and that's that. everyone gets a little taste of harsh realities in life. but, all will soon overcome or have already overcame them and yeah. life goes on! :)
lol i guess i sha'nt talk more! my bro's queing up for his turn to finish up his work and im. AHH stressting him up! :)) HAHA till then!
6:33 AM :D
Monday, August 14, 2006
ahh. back at home at last. hmm... i must praise myself for being so updated recently :P nahh. it's just that blogging seem to be the only thing i can do now. or rather, these few days HAHA. blogging seems like fun. but, when there's nothing nice to blog about. you just wanna talk rubbish. just like what i am trying to do right now.
nahh. basically there's better things to blog about. but, even talking about it spoils the mood. but yep. since there's nothing to talk about other than this. i'll just... like talk about it yea? hahaha. so basically.. i did'nt do my humans homework as usual..er.. yeah. cause there's totally no hope for me in humans. and i have some extraordinary brains that can't function properly. so i always forget things. erm. to make it sound nicer.. im not so good at remembering things! yeah that's it. so.. back to where i was.. i was sent out of the class. or rather. welcomed by the surroundings outside the class. and all of us were playing outside the class when mr razak, our dicipline master walked towards us and yes. told us to make a circle @ the tower. HAHA like merry go-round!!!!! oh shut up christina. neway. the thing is, we'll have to complete the work by tomorrow if not he'll call up our parents to meet, once again, the "greatest, most fabulous" mr ong. AHH. everything also mr ong. mr ong mr ong mr ong. he always gets the last say. yuck. he thinks he's like some president or something? screw off la. xD haha. don't mind. but, seriously, the hatred for him is like unfathomable :) and same for everyone too!! ask everyone from PRC. you'd get the same answer HAHAHA! that's the reason why i wanted a pistol on my hands and poom! him. it'll just bring universal happiness to everyone around if he could just die :) but we'll the evil people are like always meant to live longer than the better ones eh? they always have to show that on tv HAHA!!
but yeah. gotta hit the books soon! so here's the end of the summary for today :) tata!
12:35 AM :D
Sunday, August 13, 2006
im back, back to life. at last, away from the books. seesh. just 2 hours of studying everyday is already almost killing me. to think of 4 hours a day? i dont it its quite possible at all. HAHA. my bro told me in order to pass my "N" levels i'd have to study for 4 hours everyday. yea right.. HAHA eat your words man!! :P. you're not doing the same la huh, kor. he's always "oh im doing my work ON THE COMPUTER" (not forgetting im chatting on msn more than doing my work :)). well, its pretty much of my concern because he's eating up my computer time. but ah whatever, it'll help me in some ways. like i dont have to waste my time. and rather do something more productive like sleeping. but argh. the computer is just.. too attractive for its own good. this is what i call a REAL beautiful disaster HAHA.
ahhhh.. im hungry!!! my bro just went down to have supper with his friend. oh obviously he can. cause my parents are asleep. but... i told him to help me buy food he said he has no money :'( i seriously need to eat!! oh of cause i need to. that's the result for the size i am today HAHAHAHHA. aiyah.. maybe he'll buy food for me. for maybe not. maybe he will!! cause he's my bro!! :) GAH stop deluding yourself christina. pretty much everytime. i find pleasure deluding myself. HAHAHA. aiyah who dont right. :D but i'd face up to reality when its time to HAHAHAHAHA. for example if my bro comes back without the BAH CHOR MEE. then yah. i'd face up to reality that im not gonna have the food. realities in life are always harsh. but we'll have to live with it. and i rawk at facing up to realities. HAHAHAHA (look who's talking) :P right, leongish? haha!!!
and argh.. i did'nt get to watch the fireworks yesterday! i had duty in church :( aww.. its once a year and i missed the last of it. :( but i swear (oops) i'd catch it next year :D
alright! it's late. time to hit the BED :) till then!
8:44 AM :D
Friday, August 11, 2006
ahh! im tired but free from books. and now, im still in last night's clothes and all screwed up hair, tapping my fingers on the keyboards, when my guitar lesson is 10 mins away :)). guess what? IM RETARDEDLY LATE. but i'll blog before i go.
oh basically there's really nothing much to blog about. but im just excited over the fact that i'd be going to watch to fireworks later :)) oh, that's if im not scheduled for duty at church today ^^ i hope not. cause i have been sitting infront for many many sundays now. but, what happened to my weekends?? it seems like it's totally... WADEVER. :)) shant type more, id blow my cover.
GUITAR GUITAR HERE I COME!
till then humans!
11:23 PM :D
oops. what am i doing here at such an unearthly hour? haha. basically, once again, i just cant get to bed. my brains just sickeningly, annoyingly, stubornly wont stop function. i wish i could just pull my brains out of this rock-hard head. maybe i just wont get to sleep if i dont tap my fingers on these keyboards. also, the clear screen of this LCD monitor is just blinding me and i am about to rip my eyes out of their sockets. well, i hope not. GAH.
what happened today? right after school i stayed back in the dnt room for like 4 hours before i get to go home. and when i reached home, hola! my mum's home too! she's on leave and that's rather bad cause we will defo be told to study. and i guessed it right. but, after awhile, my eyes seem to keep closing and it was about to stop functioning so i had to resign to fate and just hit the bed. i was woken up constantly by my mum. first she had to come to my room, of the fan and plug in her hair dryer and blow dry her hair. what woke me up? the annoying whirling sounds of the hair dryer and the undying heat. ahh! does she have to do that everytime??? not only that, after everyting was back to normal, and christina was dreaming of marshmellows, candy canes and sweets. her wonderful mum did this - "tick" and she ons the light. that was worst. i kept whining and whining "MUM CAN YOU PLEASE TURN OFF THE LIGHT. IM SLEEPING!" but she continues talking on the phone and till i was at 100 degrees celcius, my mum finally turned off the light. and what? obviously i cant sleep! cause i was seriously boiling. i stormed out of the room giving that gloomy face. and when my bro saw my face he just kept laughing and laughing. ARGH.
everything was fine after that all the way till after dinner and my mum suddenly pops the usual question "are you going to study" of cause i replied no. and i got loads of music blasted through my ears. and when they finally had their fill of scolding me, they decided to wake me up first thing in the morning to do what? TO STUDY. ARGH! sometimes the books just haunts me. and well, they'll never leave.
ok i guess i'll get to bed now.. it'll be more disastrous if my parents wake up. till then! :)
yayee gonna catch the fire works tml with gang!!!!! im happy :D
10:25 AM :D
Thursday, August 10, 2006
woot. the happy national day was a really happy, uber mega fun time for me! when out with friends to at first, play lan at tampinese SAFRA and after, moved on to marina to feast. yes you bet we got a place! but guess what? we were at first given the seat just outside the back door of the toilet. "erm.. could we get other places please?" and got a not so good but much better place, in a cramped place, nearest to a wall. it was really packed. and we were lucky to even get seats. :)) the fire works soon started. and... i didnt get a glimpse of it. cause i had to take care of our table. pathetic huh.. haha. really sad. heard the fireworks this year was really nice.. well, try to catch it again this sat :)) so.. all came back to the table and we continued feasting. me and jiexi managed to get some crabs. well, you might think that it normal to get crabs there. but, yesterday it totally wasnt. everytime the person refilled the crabs, it'll be gone in about 2-5 seconds? NO JOKE! till the point where, when they wanna refill the crabs.. people had to queue up for it.. and they'll give 2 pieces of crabs to you. and off you go! dont ask for more! and what's worst? the prawns too.. i was picking up the prawns from the tray when i was really happy to see the aunty refilling it..wha la! all the people come rushing to the seafood stand as if golds have dropped from heaven. and i, obviously, was being squashed flat. they don't care if you're human or not. just as long as they get the prawns.. gawd.. typical singaporeans.. like us :)) haha!
after all, all of us had to rush home for my sake. my mum, annoyance level @ 100% called me home straight away. unfortunately, all the buses we packed with people. so we decided to walk to the MRT station. we had a long long walk. i had to run, as it was already 11+ when i was supposed to reach home by 9.30 when we thought we reached the MRT station and christina was like "move it christina! just a while more to go. we're reaching soon!" we found ourselves back to where we are. means to say, we made a huge circle around the place. fun arh khang leng?! hahahahahhaha! kl was the one leading or rather, trying to lead us to the MRT station. but the truth is, he is'nt a wee but familiar with the roads. so hahahs! we called a cab and i finally reached home.
my sis quietly opened the door for me so my mum would not know im back, so i wont get the nagging when my mum asked my sis" sarah, where did mei mei(me) say she was?" my sister suddenly stood rooted to the ground and slowly turned around like a theif was being caught by the police. and phew. no, my mum was asking my sister, shouting from the room! and my sister went "err.. oh.. she told me shes at pasir ris already." then ran back to the door and helped me open and "quick go bathe then pretened to sleep already" i rushed to the toilet, still carrying my bag because i know putting down my bag would make alot of noise and safely got out of the toilet all clean and fresh. when i was half, about lying down, my mum came out of her room, actually wanting to ask my sis something, saw me. and oh gawd. i got the nagging after all my sister's hard work (taking note that she'll never lie to my parents) HAHAHAHHA!
but well, everything's fine now! and im save! :))
and here are some pictures we took!
what makes 3? the charlies angels? :))
wee!!~
the loving couples and the... gay boys?
some crazy people trying to act like undeads :))
oi! i am meditating. please dont take!
just another pohto of us. me trying to knock the two kuku's head but it did'nt turn out..so right..
graceful, graceful ballerinas :D
gays! ahhH!!
and more gays!! caught in action!! :S
khang leng acting gay and me!
and... more ballerinas!!!!
well, ever heard of the anti-poser scheme?? :D
well, i obviously had a mega, uber fun time! and thank you guys!
12:04 AM :D
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
YAYEE! more quiz, more fun!!
THE CANs
Can you blow a bubble? you bet i can! with bubble solution or saliva :D
Can you dance? i dance as good as elvis presley. NAHH just joking :D
Can you do a cart wheel? i can :D well, leongish i was a gymnast too :P:P:P HAHAHHA
Can you tie a cherry stem with your tongue? never tried.
Can you whistle? yeap.
Can you wiggle your ears? yeap i can. my dad taught me how to!
Can you wiggle your nose? yeap! my primary school classmate taught me how to
THE DIDs
Did you ever run away from home? nope. never tried. but, it's a torturing chamber down here!
Did you ever want to be a doctor? nope
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter? nope. i'd nevver wanna get chao tah.
Did you ever want to be a police officer? nope. i'd just need the pistols they provide.
THE DOs
Do you know how to swim? yeah.
Do you like roller coasters? nope. i have height phobia
Do you own a bike? an ancient one. haven been touching it since 2 years ago?
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? i cook. but my cooking skill are'nt that good.
THE DOES
Does hair loss run in your family at all? nope. daddykins has a head filled with hair and mummykins too
Does your car get good gas mileage? do i look like im at a ripe age to own a car?
Does your family have family picnics? once, at pulau ubin
THE HAVEs
Have you ever been on a plane? yeah. a pathetic one time
Have you ever asked someone out? when im dreadedly bored
Have you ever been asked out by someone? who havent? MY FRIENDS!
Have you ever been to the ocean? ive been to the sea
Have you ever gone fishing? yea i have. cause of my dad's fishing frenzy!. the whole family went fish catching at kelong!
Have you ever painted your nails? yeah i have
THE HOWs
How did you find out about Friendster? an invitation mail i guess?
How many of them have you met in person? LOL. you expect me to count one by one? :D
THE WHATs
What are you listening to? the sniffing of my nose
What is the temperature outside? approx some temp i cant find out :)
What radio station do you listen to? i don't listen to radio STATIONS. tell me how you do.
What was the last restaurant you ate at? swensens
What was the last thing you bought? erm.. siew mai yesterday :) HAHA
What was the last thing you had to drink? ribena
What was the last thing on TV you watched? ABC deejay
THE WHOs
Who is your newest friend you have on Friendster? no new friends i tihnk.
Who was the last person you smsed? khang leng
Who is the last person you talked to on the phone talking on the phone and calling up to inform is different right? :S
Who is your current crush? sorry, im sexist. NAHH JK xD you know what i'd say- this question is redundant :))
Who was the last person you took a picture of? my dnt project
Who was the last person to leave you a comment? leave me a comment? on my blog, its NANA
Who was the last person you said I love you to? leongish, carina.
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY EVERYONE! :D
my mum has agreed to allow me to celebrate N day with my lovely minions later this afternoon :D IM HAPPY! ^^
1:10 AM :D
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
yes. and i was late again, second time in this year. and well, the brainless OM claims that i was late many times. yes, i was late many times. but think again, it was last year. are you brainless or what?! what pisses me off the most was, yes, i was in the wrong for being late, but, what's worst? he DEMANDED to see our parents. well, OUR parents, have no time to LOOK at your sickening face, and bear with YOUR unbearable bodily odours. OUR parents dont do a low-life job like you do. OUR parents, are busy working and they wont spend a sec looking at that annoying face of yours. is this understandable enough for the level of your intelligence?
sometimes it makes me wonder why, some males has more female hormones than male hormones, and some females, more male hormones than female ones. well, i saw a male with obvious enough female hormones than male hormones. wanna know who? well, you see, the OM, i just realised today, has a set of "great" boobs grown on him. pardon me, but seriously, its really true. so you see, bodily odours- check! boobs- check! and what more? curly-fried hair with kutus- check! and you get the point, he's the worst ive ever came across! xD and, no one ever liked him, cause of his oh-i'd-shout-so-i-can-grab-the-attention-of-everyone-around kind of style. seriously speaking, no one ever gives a lulu (censored) about him.
to add to that, the principal had to talk so long, as usual, which is always a waste of time. or rather, he likes to repeat what he said to drag the time. from where i was sitting, i wished i was holding a pistol so i could shoot him down and he can never again open that gap of his again. ARGH. schools, what a pain!
and how ive just realised, i see a recent trend for laughing at what's not funny at all. FOR EXAMPLE, someone sees you gathering outside the hall cause you came to school late. and maybe, you got a little nagging by the teacher then the person look at you and starts laughing to himself or herself. so seriously, if YOU think that everything is a thing to laugh about, then YOUR life must be a joke. oh, it's an exception if you're a little mentally retarded =) people will pity you and wont bear grudges with you.
bah! i'd scratch that.
and now, i owe many people my gratitude
i did'nt know i was such a lucky person until yesterday. i am thankful for my mum who bore such caring siblings. yesterday, i realised i really had alot of dnt work to finish up. my bro and sis stayed up with me, but my sis soon feel asleep cause of all the energy spent on intensive studying every night. my bro stayed up with me until 2+ am this morning to help me with my dnt to complete it quickly when i am having half day today. so, little sleep is'nt a problem.but, for my brother, he went to sleep at 2+ am but have a full day of school to attend. but finally we went to sleep as there was still much more to finish. im really thankful to my sibs especially my bro, and kor, i really appreciate that. :D
i also wanna thank all the people who supported me through. no matter the circumstances :D THANKS MEGA MUCH ALL YOU PEOPLE :D
tml is national day and i am going to celebrate it with my minions. well, at least i hope my mum will allow :D so, happy national day eve to every living creatures in singapore :D
12:40 AM :D
Monday, August 07, 2006
ahh. finally home at last. what i really wanted was my comfy bed. but the computer just seems so attractive and i just had to sit here and tap my fingers on the keyboard. or else it'll get too itchy, beyond control :D
sometimes, it really makes me wonder. for just doing a wrong thing, someone can get into deep deep trouble within a day. for example yesterday you're still at home tapping your fingers on the keyboard. and before you know it, you find yourself locked in jail for stupidly doing something wrong. what just happened to my friend was. he's so stupid, he really had to land his fist on my classmate's rib cage just for the fun out of it. my classmate, defendless, laid down on the floor, whining in pain. and what all the rest did was to sit there to cheer and laugh. as for me, i think i had enough shouting at these bastards. opps, sorry, that's the only word to describe them. so, i only sat at my place and watch, on the verge of slapping my friend on the face.the others were bullying him too. but, cause he's a friend to me, all of us cared for no one but him. cant he just BLOODY wake up? will you feel the pleasure beating someone up just for the fun of it? obviously not. but seriously, that idiot out of my friend does. and what now? he got himself into trouble. the principal, the dicipline master, the operations manager and many other teachers know about this case. he might get expelled, all of us do not know. but we're hoping not..
and now, you sit and think, remembering all the fun times all of us had together. the next minute, he might get expelled, what's worst? sent to boys home. i mean it's really not worth it to "have fun" with other people when you know you'd get yourself big trouble. and look what you are in now.. we dont know how to help you. although we tried... but somethings just wont go the way we want it to be. we're hoping for you too..
sigh.. things are happening way to quick for me to grasp. i think i better get my rest now before i set off for TUITION. ARGH if only i paid full attention in class huh? i wont have to suffer this kinda fate. but well, once again, somethings just wont go the way you want it to be. and that's the ugliness of reality :)) we'll all have to face it .
-positive or negative, a load of my chest!- :))
12:57 AM :D
Sunday, August 06, 2006
hah. i cant get to sleep. believe it or not the greatest pig of the century is starting to have syntoms of unrest. :)) yes, i so long to fall straight back to my fluffy pillows. but no, i really cant get back to sleep.
well, tml's my prelims. ask me why am i not studying. cause i just dont feel like it xD. tml's humans and i think there's not a need to study it. cause, i'd fail it no matter what. i mean, if i studied earlier. i'd defo make it. but no, even if i really want to study. obviously i cant start now. its not possible that i can absorb everything like that huh :D
AHH OK DONE BLOGGING! :D
3:19 AM :D
Friday, August 04, 2006
---what now? why am i still here? why is the train still here? why is it not moving forward? why is it moving back instead? then, when can i see the light again? why must i always be the one stucked in the tunnel? we all know it's impossible to feel comfortable moving back.. or rather, it's impossible to see a train moving back. it has never been possible. so why am i still stucked here? and what am i waiting for? something's just so wrong. it feels like my whole world has turned upside down.. where's the right side up? i'm trying to look for it.. trying really really hard.---
it's finally a saturday. things have not been turning out oh-so-right for me. and all i really want to do is just drown all my woes in dreams.. in my sleep. but no, life still goes on. and all i really wanna see, is a ray of light out of this tunnel.. but no, the sun does'nt quite shine on me. and BAH. i really don't want to think abt it anymore. it just feels so... so.. extremely wrong.
well, later's GEL meet. and im happy =) leongish will sure be there to brighten up my day. and i love you mega leongish. and nana too. : :D i love GEL mega too :)
-and it feels like you dont care anymore-
-who am i kidding. you haven cared ever since.-
and to you, it's always been you and her. and i hate you for that.
i've been so naive, ignorant, foolish.
9:20 PM :D
Thursday, August 03, 2006
doing this for leongish once again! :D
Victim of: LEONGISH
1oo Questions.
1. full name: chan rui fang christina
2.name backwards: gnaf iur nahc anitsirhc
3.were you named after anyone: nope i dont think so..
4. meaning of name: no meaning
5. nick name: banana, tiny tina, jaded, xiao fang, nana
6. screen name: LOOK! it's jaded
7. date of birth: 22nd december 1990
28.place of birth: Singapore General Hospital
9.nationality: Singaporean
10. current location: Singapore
11. star sign: Capricon
12. religion: Christianity
13. height: 156.5 okay im short. happy?
14. weight: this is totally, extremely, uber REDUNDANT
15. shoe size: US MASTER 4.5
16. hair colour: BLACK urggh!
17. eye colour: black! UBER UGHH!
18. what do you look like: like what? i like many things :D
19. innie or outie: outie! :D
20. righty, lefty, or ambidextrous: lefty
21. gay, straight, les, or other: straight.. it'nt it obvious?HAHA les at times :D with leongish and nana
22. best friends: loads
23. best friend you trust the most: muo gu (sharon loh loh)
24. favourite pals: LOADS
25. best friends of the opposite sex: dont have much time to think
26. best buddies: LOADS
27. boyfriend or girlfriend: what do u mean boyfriend or girlfriend?
28. crush: this is also redundant
29. parents: mummykins and daddykins
30. worst enemy: not telling :D
31. favorite on-line guys: i dont go to IRC
32. favorite on-line girls: i dont go to IRC
33. funniest friend: HAHA loads
34. craziest friend: LOADS LOADS
35. best friend of the opposite sex: LOADS
36. loudest friend: leongish
37. person you cry with: i cry alone can? pathetic huh?
38. any sisters: sarah chan
39. any brothers: matthew chan
40. any pets: all died last year xD
41.a disease: nope
42. a pager: nope
43. a personal phone line: yeah have one
44. a cell phone: yes
45. a lava lamp: i wish i had one
46. a pool or hot tub: hot tub! ahh! drown all my sorrows in it
47. a car: i'd wish to have a limo
48. personality: i think im quite loud? erm. whatever. i dont really know :D
49. driving: i wish i knew how to
50. car or one you want: A LIMO I SAID!! :D
51. room: what? u expect me to describe my room? HAHA
52. got lost: upteen times
53. school: Pasir Ris Crest Sec/the people's republic of china school (prcs? HAH)
54. bed: bouncy HAHAHA
55. relationship with your parents: fairly good
56. believe in yourself: not that often
57. do you believe in love at first sight: oh shut up
58. consider yourself a good listener: maybe? :DD
59. made your own breakfast: yeap.
60. get along with your parents: i cant say that often
61. save your e-mail conversations: nope
62.pray: duh. night after night
63. believe in reincarnation: nope
64. like to make fun of people: HAH. specific annoying persons
65. like to talk on the phone: depends who's on another line
66. want to get married: SHUT UP
67. like to drive: I WANT TO AND I'D LOVE TO
68. get motion sickness: nope. ima strong
69. eat the stems of broccoli: HATE THAT
70. eat chicken fingers with a fork: nope. i use my hands
71. dream in color: multicoloured can?
72. type with your fingers on home row: what's that?
73. sleep with a stuffed animal: 1.. oh 3 :D feelers, my pet whale, honey my pet bear and piggy my pet pig
74. right next to you: air
75. on the walls of your room: paint
76. on your mouse pad: nope. no mouse pads
77. your dream car: LIMO
78. your dream date: shut up
79. your dream honeymoon spot: wonderland
80. your dream husband or wife:REALLY, PLEASE SHUT UP
81. your bedtime: no specific times
82. under your bed: dusts
83. the single most important question: hmm. still thinking
84. your bad time of the day: mornings
85. your worst fears: i fear many things can?
86. the weather is: trying to kill me right now
87. the time: 2:04 and im late for my dnt lesson!
88:the date: 4/8/06
89.the best trick you ever played on someone: cant remember
90. got lost again: i know how to go home by myself now
91. theme song: theme song? HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL
92. the hardest thing about growing up: everything.
93. your funniest experience: not funny
94. your scariest moment: bah i dunno when
95. the silliest thing you've said: things that pisses people off at times xD
96. the funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex: i dont.
97. the scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s): always the mystery games during GEL camps!
98. the worst feeling in the world: know what? shut up
99. the best feeling in the world: to be stupidly in love can?
100. 5 people to do this quiz: AHAHAHHAA JUST DO IF U WANT TO. i've done my part :D
AHH GOTTA RUSH FOR MY DNT! till later! :D
10:29 PM :D
ok. so here we are! and hola! my prelims starts tomorrow. but it 's the mother toungue paper, so it doesnt count. but, that means the starting of prelims. so.. i'd seriously need to like hit the books very soon. well, i haven given up on my humans(humanities). but most of me is acting otherwise. like not studying for tests, pigging during that period, and not doing humans homework. well, anyhow, i'd just try my best :)
now, what's worst than getting woken up irritatedly by your maid, so early in the morning. she does things like removing your pillow from your head and immediatly your head will land right down on the hard bed *oww*.that's if you are trying hard not to wake up. and you'd give that sickening pissed off face and walk to the toilet to get ready. obviously because of the knock on the head, and obviously, you wont be able to get back to sleep. and what's more, she'll pretend she's like your mum and go "what time christina coming back? after school come back strrraight. don't go out go out" when i was about to leave the house. ok. now that pisses me of even more. cause she chants that every morning. and it feels like she's controling my life. yet, no where near it. :P and now, you got up the bus. and history repeats itself like people "tsk-ing" you when you tried to get down the bus. then you have to walk a few mins walk to school. you'll have to walk thru the "park" cause it's the best shortcut, and you keep looking up. the reason? birds are flying everywhere. you look up cause you're afraid that they will drop their gold on you. or rather, target their droppings on you. now you run cause you wanna prevent yourself from being "lucky" and by the time you reach school, you'll be dripping wet. from your perspiration. ok, not dripping wet. but, perspirating even before the school starts is bad enough.
BAH! dont wanna talk about it anymore. but it's just, i wish i lived a better life. SIGHHHHH!!!
okie.. outta here!
-nothing like what i thought it would turn out to be-
2:08 AM :D
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
hmmm. so what now? im seriously lacking behind. especially in my studies. where did all the "i will try my best" kind of spirit went to? looks like im forcing myself to study. i mean i have always been forcing myself to study. but this time, im not even trying. it's like i can already be prepared to go to ITE? but seriously, i really need to pass my N lvls plus, with flying colours. but, its like ive got no urge to really drown myself in books. like everytime i open a book, and after a few seconds, u can find me infront of the tv, fiddling with my phone or in front of the computer. i'm afraid i'd fail, yet i dun feel a sense of urgency. the "ok i promise to start next week" seems to keep getting carried forward. ok, we all know talk is cheap. but, i think i really need the urge to study soon. really soon.
i've taken about 3 or 4 prepratory exams. but, the truth is, i know i'd flunk or maybe get a borderline pass for all of them. now, even chemistry. i thought i could be a uber guiness and kind of take the paper without even touching the chemistry notes. and so, i found the paper tough.really tough. now i know it's impossible passing, let alone scoring without glue-ing your eyes to the books. i guess i'd start soon. i just need a better sense of urgency. everything seem like a joke. BUT SERIOUSLY IT IS'NT. bah! what on earth am i trying to get here.
well, and it seems, i just enjoy wasting my time. like building castles in the air, collecting cob webs, just sitting around for hours. ahh i just love doing that. but at the same time i dont know what am i wasting my time for. i could have done something more productive.
and looking at my dnt folio, im starting to get more worried. next friday is the MOE deadline and im just a little more than half done. GAWD, someone help me!!! :S
-nothing's ever what it seems-
Christinawashere
6:22pm
2:57 AM :D