Friday, March 31, 2006
back from school. training rawked! haha i slacked alot!. but at least i had a bout with tengish. (eugene teng) i was in the equiptment room talking with farah. until mrs tan came in, i did'nt know she will check the equiptment room. but anyway, i managed to quickly grab something and pretend to repair it. mrs tan: christina, why are u hiding here and not training?! me: orh. i repairing blades(erm, i dunt even know how to LOL) mrs tan: why must repair blades now? why cant u go and train now? me: orh. i armourer, i helping them repair blades mrs tan: oh okay. (walks off). shit. if i can do that every training, tht'll be great. :D its onli a few more hours till sat reaches!! oh, crap. i have CIP in the morning. no idea what kinda funny things we're gonna do at tampines mrt station. but sigh, its compulsory anyway.
dnt screwed up my eyes. haha. i was filing my project and then the plastic flew into my eyes. shit. and till now, it still hurts.
oh yah. and today is the 31st march. what kinda day it is?? HAPPY BIRTHDAY 14th NANA(carina) :D we love u!! phew, didnt pon school today. ahha! IT IS REALLI EXTREMELY ADDICTIVE. but well, i can control my temptations de. haha :) and i dun tink i will pon school for the rest of the year le. cause i realli wan to and i need to pass my N lvls.
i downloaded PANGA i tot i was gonna be an RPG game but in the end, i found out it is an online golf game. i was like -_-" wasted my time downloading haha cause i have nv liked golf. its not fun at all. not playing co le. no more interest in everything in it. dun even have interest in any games right now.
blades tml pearl and carina darl! :D
2:45 AM :D
Thursday, March 30, 2006
somehow pon-ning school seems to be so addictive :) planning of doing that again tml? haha but no, i wanna pass N lvls. woot~ im so happy its already like 947 at night and my mum's not back yet, my dad? head on pillows, doors closed, he's sleeping so soundly. hahaha! i feel so free. no need to study for tonight! woohoo!
have been eating so so so much recently! having such humongous appitite (did i use that word correctly, or rather, did i spell it correctly? haha) such a FAT ELEPHANT! haha should stop it before i land up in FAT club. NOT JOINING U GUYS(wei jun and khang leng) THERE!! HAHAHAHAHA :P once u join the FAT club, u lose all ur face.(just like jonan, im being such a dumbfuck.(ops! yah, promised not to scold ler haha)) i shld juz start excercising now haha :D
ok enough of that. but some ppl is juz not worth consoling! damn it. waste all my energy and in the end wanna "...." me or "-_-'" me. wah, i now know. its nv good being nice. [NO MORE MISS NICE GAL] to ppl who are not worth it. love all the lovely peeps around me. LOVE GELLERS!! cant wait to see u all on sat! i say gel u say rawk!
5:48 AM :D
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
back from school. and argh. pearlyn's friends are irritating, childish, asswipes. :X ok one bad word from me, but, that's what i can really describe abt them. how big le, still acting like primary school KIDS. and belive me, when i call them kids, they realli are acting like some. dont worry pearl, u always have us :D
oh yah and i forgot to make one point. I HAD MY BEFF NOODLES YESTERDAY.WAS CRAVING FOR IT SINCE SATURDAY.and now, i want to have it again. haha. cause practically every food that my maid whipes up, ermmm, dont talk abt it. haha :D k la. im damn bad not like i can cook well too. xD
okie, starting to save up money now, so i can go blading with pearl. AND SOPHIA, BELIVE ME, I REALLI CANT WAIT FOR SATURDAY!! woohoo~~
days are passing so quickly and N levels are nearing and nearing. i aim to make it. but the thing is, can i? with idiotic teachers who SIMPLY LOVES to waste time scolding and not teaching. and seriously, at the rate and method ms chong is teaching, our class will definately fail with beautiful flying colours. and seriously, her pronunciation realli. sigh, CMI (cant make it) how are we suppose to learN!!!! and my mum ask me to memorize all the formular by heart. but its not all abt memorising mum, i have to understand in order to score. now that i've got a math tuition to push up my maths, i need science tuition! mummy! i wanna score de!!
khangleng was being such an ass. he didnt want to study and told us to pon school again tml. FUN ARH!? i dun like ok. although it was quite a fun day yesterday. but still, if u wanna pon, pon urself :D haha
no matter what, i'll be going to school tml. pon school got reason de okays.
haha neway, learnt alot in school today, enjoyed realli much arguing with ms chong cause as usual, she was being an ass. haha. nahh. didnt enjoy that. but i hope i had caught up with my works.
okie that's all i gotta say for now, tata :D
3:16 AM :D
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
this morning, as usual, had to meet khang leng and wei jun to go to school together. as usual, i woke up late and as usual, i was the last one to be there.
i was late. realli late i reached the bus stop opposite my house to meet them at 713 and as usual, got a little scolding from them. as a result of my "puntuality", we had to take cab. but, as usual, stupid people always snatch cab. raising out our hands like mad people dancing under the rain, to catch a cab, it was finally 718. so yea..we didnt go to school, as we didnt want to get scolded by some useless OM. so, we went to my house. they slacked alot as there was nth for them to do haha. i went to sleep. after i woke up we decided that we should go out.
we had to accompany wei jun home as he wanted to change to home clothes.( we had to wait for him at his void deck tho`) khang leng didnt go home as he could not cause his mum will "kill me arh! bloody shit" we went to many places. including the arcade is plaza sing, with khang leng in his school pants. as a result, he got scolded for that.
learning to be more and more like my bro, pon-ing school and stuffs AHHA.
disclaimer: not blaming u, bro.
but not to worry, will pick up after today. will not pon school again, erm might not, i mean. if, we dont get late again.
was quite a boring day. i guess going to school is better afterall.
okay, i gotta say this again, but i REALLI CANT WAIT FOR SATURDAY!!!! its gonna be fun! im lovin it~ :D
2:32 AM :D
Monday, March 27, 2006
okie. its been long since i last blogged. many things happened which i do not wanna bring up. including my personal life. haha :D
i know it was damn damn damn foolish to do that. and its SUPER pure stupidity. im such an idiot. but well, at least i know my mistakes now. well, everyone makes mistakes dont they :)
so today, after school, Khang Leng, Wei Jun, Sharon and me, together went for lunch at mac at dte. i wanted to have ice cream. but i didnt want to eat the cone. so i ordered sunday without flavour :D haha. Wei Jun had to go back to school for speech day rehearsal so we needed to rush. while on our way walking back, sharon asked if i wanted to take a bus home with her. so i decided to ask the guys. blurly i turned back, expecting the guys to be right behind me. i was like "hey u all want to take bus......." when i finally realised that it wasnt them behind but, wei long and yu jun? (wei jun told me their names) lol. it was super embarassing. and all the guys that were behind me (including the sec 5 guys) were laughing at me. but whatever lah. im as blur as always i guess. sigh got to go for tuition later. zhi yong's joining too. haha. tuition has alwasy been quite fun lahs. ever since i joined [chec](city harvest educational center) if im not wrong haha. have already rushed my tuition homeworks in school :)
had lots of fun with darls pearl and na na yesterday :D enjoyed it super much! hehe. :D cant wait to see u all again.
oh tian! i cant wait for saturday!!! i realli cant wait.. its gonna be fun!! lots and lots of fun. :D:D:D:D:D
12:28 AM :D
Thursday, March 23, 2006
woo~ i just cut my hair although i dont see a difference haha :)
everything is church is screwed up. even i am screwed up. if they dun believe, i'll let them be. but i am innocent. ai yah what ever. dun wan to talk abt it ler.
hai many bad things happened in school today. firdaus, did'nt fat mama tell u not to be an ass in school? yes. he was being an ass. a big one. okay, cheer up xavier. :D
sigh, and then again, recently so many things happened. at such a short period of time. after that thing happened. i told my self i would not get myself into trouble lers. i promised myself no matter how shitty i think the person is, i will nv say anything abt him or her le. recently, got into deeps shits, for nothing. so now, ppl will not misunderstand me anymore! argh!. so many things is happening in church, are we actually GEL-ed or not!
co is not working again. i wonder why. kor, did u do anything to my co? :(
11:20 PM :D
back from training at last. i didnt train at all. lol slack like mad. did'nt even warm up! :) me and pj keep going to the equiptment room to slack. did many craps inside haha like playing "golf" instead of training. well, tml's training is gonna be for onli one hour yay! :D confirm will slack again. that's if there's ppl to accompany me to slack haha :D sigh, hope what happened yesterday wont happen again. nightmare. please dad.
sigh. seems like an all talk no show for me again. cause nothing is changing. i know, actions speaks louder than words. i thought forever u would be mine, i guess i was being too naive, deluding myself.
im bored. sigh wanted to sleep early yesterday night. but my mum waked me up to study. :( seems like she cant live a day without seeing us study huh mum? sigh, sadly, i dont think i have interest in studying anymore, sorry mum. but i'll still try my best, that, u dont have to worry.
gonna try co again. hope it works :)
4:44 AM :D
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
sigh, and again, i couldnt log-on to co (conquer online) :( kor, what did u do with my game again? do u have u always do that!? every game i play u always have to disturb it! humph! what to do now that i dun have anything to do? sigh. im bored!! my bro always purposely come and stand infront of the com when im using it, especially when im blogging. i told him to stop standing here once, i told him twice, he wont budge. after when my dad came home, i told my dad abt it. he keep accusing me, talking to me in that kind of tone like he's not happy with me. did i do anything wrong in the first place? i dun think so. so i told my dad u are being unreasonable, stop talking to me now. the next thing i know, he's already whacking me and slapping my face. whats wrong with him? did i do anything wrong in the first place? i dun think so. so, maybe i was wrong at shouting back at my dad but in the first place i swear i dont think i did anything wrong. he's an abusive parent. and i hate him. i dun need him in my life and i dun need dicipline when im not even in the wrong at all. all he knows is to whack ppl like nobody business, im not a toy, for ur information, im human. like u, like anyone else. i see that u are not fit to be a father.u dun understand me, how i feel. u shld not have marry in the first place. u dun care abt me, ur not my dad. I HATE U. i dun want u here. i had enough. im grown up now. im not a small gal. enough of all ur craps. ur diciplines are not diciplines u are so abusive and i realli had enough.
ever imagined? having a dad like mine? i swear u'd rather kill urself.
having enough of stress and things to think abt, here, once again, my dad is giving me more troubles than i thought.
okays, so the church is having more and more problems recently. will it be solved? will see abt it.
thanks to my dad, my eyes are all swollened. yeah thanks dad. ur such a dissapointment. the worst disssapointment ive ever seen.
sigh :( what i bad day. nth's right. i guess tml will be a better day. dun feel like studying today. i shall sleep early tonight. drown myself in dreams. get out of this stupid life. :'(
2:20 AM :D
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
back at last from school, i was almost overjoyed that training had been canceled. we just sat and talked. At 5, mr neo announced that training will end at 5:15 haha! and we haven done anything fruitful for the day and we happily packed and went home. sigh, this time, going home with sam and pearlyn. did'nt want to be the light bulb there so i had to wait for another bus. :( it wasnt till i reach home that i realised i need to change, be a different person now.( you'll all know what i mean) i dunno how to, but i'll guess i'll just let nature take its own course.
clinging on to false hope is'nt gonna help me. i just read "teenage" it told me that" the past is dead, the future is what u must concentrate on now". i realise these words striked me. so i thought, if it were meant to be, it'll already happen earlier.dreading over it cant change things. it just realli cant be forced.these things cant be controled.being friends i guess, shld be better off.
ok enough of that.
after typing in my username and password continuously on co, i guess i've admitted defeat, i could not log in and that it haha, guess i'll have to wait.
oh yeahh there's one pic that i forgotten to upload last sat. here it is :P
heh. its just a pose, nth happened, really :D IM NO LES. haha not homo too. im juz normal :D (thanks to my hand made it look so real. pearlyn! u lah! thanks to ur position! dun look real le lah haha :D) credits to darl carina who help us take this pic :) hehe
okies, i guess i'll have to go bathe now! before i realli stink up the whole place! okies till then!
3:05 AM :D
Sunday, March 19, 2006
sigh! i got scared awake :'( i dreamt that a ghost was chasing me :'( sigh. thank heavens it wasnt a sweet dream. or i wouldnt have woken up after today. needed real rest as yesterday was a realli, tying day! so many things to do! danced like mad! :) nearly fell asleep just now as the pastor was preaching :X haha thank God mum and dad always never sit next to me during service :) again, on one's on co. :( im bored to death. sigh i shld worry more abt my homework, i'd be dead after tml cause i know i'll not complete them by tonight.
but hey, i still did them :) sigh! so little things to talk abt today. shall blog again tml. :)
1:20 AM :D
ahh.. my poor poor sore legs :'( so smart of me, went to wear heels now, blister all over. sigh. stomach full full. *burp* oops :) haha we've all done a great job in dancing!! ( i can dance one ok :P)
welcome the dance team! (clap clap) haha! make up is too thick, like clown but, we still danced well! hehe :D
had fun! lots of fun! but of course u know.. ;) haha daily routine!
darling carina finally agreed to take photo with me at last. MY SWEETIE! (im no les ok haha :D)
-boredom, out of pure boredom, usual nonsense, me and darling pearl:D(once again, im no les :D)
all in all, i had a great time today, but still :( u know what. sigh!!!!
okies, the food was nice but my aunt and cousins were irritating. ! didnt wanted them to be there. but i dont make the decisions, my mum made them :(
shldnt think abt that anymore!
its been so long, but i still miss him. sigh! :'(
1:20 AM :D
Saturday, March 18, 2006
okie before i go buy clothes and then have DINNER AT A RESTAURANT ;) i'll blog first.
hmm. what time did i wake up today? ard.. 11+ i guess? haha had nothing to do. ate my breakfast and "queued up" for the computer my bro always have to wake up so early to play his dota. that's annoying. not onli he used the com earlier than me so i cannot use, he also went to on the speaker so loud and every sat morning i'll be awakened be the words "OWNAGE!" "HOLYSHIT!" "DOUBLE KILL, TRIPLE KILL!" wa. i want to sleep one leh! haha but neway i got to play the com after waiting for awhile. but not fun. no one on co de. talk to wilfred also nv reply me one. muz be dreaming of sharon :) haha while i was eating my lunch, my bro help me hop hop hop (in game) then he was like self praising himself "see lah i so pro. i jump so well"(u dun need skills to jump in that game my friend) while eating, i was also singing "oh my darling, oh my darling, oh my darling clementine." haha and my bro play until die after hearing me sing. kor, so much for being pro huh? oh u hate my singing? lol then. then more i shld sing to u at night! :) neway, somehow i feel that im better at co now compared to last time :D hehe! oh yeah! i managed to sleep yesterday haha! wad did i tell u! it works! serious! :D:D:D
OH MY TIAN! LOOK AT THIS. ITS SUPER GRUESOME! oh my tian, oh my tian!!
if u cant see what it is, it is supposed to be human consuming HUMAN BABIES body parts including the brain [FROM SHOCKING JAPAN]
picture one shows an women shopping for PRESERVED BABY BRAINS
picture two shows bottles and bottles of PRESERVED BABY BRAINS
picture three shows a man cutting the BRAINS
picture four shows a man carrying a plate of ready-to-cook body parts+brains
picture five shows a man ready to cook the body parts!
THE LAST PICTURE SHOWS A MAN DELICIOUSLY EATING THE BODY PARTS AWAY!!!
GOODNESS! GOD KNOWS WHERE THEIR HEARTS HAVE GONE TO. THIER BUTT!? DONT THEY HAVE A HEART!?
sigh. why muz there be so many heartless ppl in the world. poor babies :'( :'(
2:31 PM :D
Friday, March 17, 2006
okay. after much tossing and turning on my bed, i finally realised i cant get to sleep. reason? i wont tell u why. haha. and i suddenly remember that i have sommething to blog abt which i forgetten to blog yesterday (ok its 1:25am now and my parents might come out of their room anytime. if they catch me, im gonna be dead)but still, im not getting to sleep till i release this all out first. yup. heard abt the terror that happened to be yesterday? coming back getting scolded for nth? yeah. at that time i was depressed enough. my parents still gave me so much problem so wad i erm.. ended up doing was.. erm.. yeah used a pen knife to scrape my skin. oh my tian! could'nt belive i did that again. but yeah couldnt blame was too depressed BUT BUT BUT!!! NTH HAPPENED :) that's good to hear haha. mum, dad, i hope u take a look at this. stop giving me more troubles. BUT I'LL SWEAR NEVER TO DO THAT AGAIN IF U STOP GIVING ME PROBLEMS. and sigh. how do i get to sleep now!!! i cant sleep!! okay maybe i shld juz do some of my holiday assignments first huh? that might help :) but sigh im lazy! i wanna play co but no one pei me play :( ah! i know what to do! :) stare out the window till i doze off! it works! tried many times hehe :)yah but might result in getting into a worser state of depression haha! but who cares anyway. maybe im already used to it. flooding the desert WAS SUPPOSED to be my daily routine. :) sigh thanks to my parents for giving me more problems. thanks mum and dad i dont think i appreciate that :(
9:24 AM :D
Thursday, March 16, 2006
back from school at last. thought at school ended at 9:30 so still got time to u know? before they leave haha but then school ended at 10:30!! the bus left at 10:15 they are gonna fence infront of THE ROYALS oh my tian! its like so cool can!! haha i thought like kings, queens, princes, princesses are like so passe (did i use this word correctly? lolz ithink not) le? lolz but still, its cool they get to see THE ROYALS.hmmm i wonder where esplanade park is. maybe i shld go there and kpo abit ah.oh, i forgot, im grounded :( neways, i was like also wanting to pass the dvd to evelyn but when the class ended i could'nt find her at the hall. mrs tan, again, without knowing anything, scolded me. i had classes that is why i did'nt go for training. she thought that i came late. and said "wa christina what is the time now! why u come so late" i was like i had classes. and she shutted up. sigh. missed miss chan san san she was alwasy there for me when i needed help and she would'nt pow toh (or how u spell it) even if u did anything wrong. she would'nt even scold you. sadly, she was transferred out of fencing and now i dun see her in school at all. i wonder why teachers like mr neo and miss oh didnt like her. i think she was a realli great teacher with lots of patience. sigh. all the good teachers are leaving our school, and more and more irritating teachers like miss choong are coming in our school. ok. neway. after school, initially wanted to go eat lunch with khang leng and wei jun onli since we're taking the same bus home. but janson and javern followed too. make me feel like im such a flirt. not flirt la, dislike following so many guys being the onli gal there. but wth! they still followed! we'll i am always with kl and wj coz most of the time we go home together. but the rest, always tag along. maybe sometimes i shld juz go home on my own. none of my close galfriends stay near me. that's sad. if onli it was like last year? erm. ok skip that. but yeah, i realli shld go home on my own sometime soon. sigh im bored to death NOBODY's online now :( i wanna play pool!! but then again, im grounded.maybe if i reach home before my parents i can go out! trying to be funny arh. there's still my maid. she will tell my parents :'( sigh!! :( sigh guess i have to rot now. downloading CO now. dunno which server they all playing. later i ask then create bahx. lolz still, i'll be the lousiest there, once again ahha! someone teach me now to exel in games!!! haha. okie i think i've talked enough haha. :)
8:52 PM :D
i'm not a liar ! if showing u evidences doesnt make u happy what more do u want? i went out to study. and my mum did't belive me. whatthehell! getting scolded for studying? i swear if this doesnt make u happy. i'll stop studying. SHE CALLED ME A LIAR as if she hired a PI and spy on me. maybe her PI is so stupid that he/she tagged the wrong person. argh i cant stand this anymore shes getting on my nerves.
my father whacked me for being sad?does that make any sense? i came home with a sad face, they scolded me for that. i mean who doesnt have troubles? everyone has their own problems. too deeply indulged with my own problems. sigh sigh sigh. my mum told me "wether u are dead or alive i dun care" it isnt realli nessacary to say that, mum. my parents have been giving me so much problems recently. ive been thru enough. stop giving me more. its killing me. I HAD ENOUGH mum and dad, leave me alone. i'd rather die under your hands. juz go away, please im frustrated enough. stop finding trouble for me to settle. i already have too much of it.
7:41 PM :D
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
hmm. first up let me start of with my this terms results :)
okay. i hate to say this but of 6 subjects i failed 4 can! i could nearly bang the wall and die. i failed my english and science which is pure let down, i failed my chinese and humans which is extremely normal :). this year, wanted to get good grades but no mood to study at all, could'nt concentrate in class :'( sigh. if onli i could juz realli go back to my real happyself. but fine, what's happened has already happened.
everything's/everyone's changing and its not like last time anymore. cause i realli hope everything to be back to where it belong.
anyway, i'll try my best next term. dun wanna fail again.
pearlyn shld change the way she type things, not nice.jonan kept commenting but, well, jo. anyhow, u cant blame ppl. everything is part of growing up. raging hormones. such things do happen :) haha i guess u were once like that too mah.
lol jonan's such a joker caught this from his blog made me laugh my butt off!: By the way,have you read today's newspaper?A man got drunk,drove without a license and knocked down and killed a tourist.How much time did he get for it?Nine months.Nine months isn't going to bring the dead person back.Nine months isn't going to help his family cope with the loss.I mean like wtf is wrong with the law system?The drunk driver's defence:"I recently broke up with my girlfriend so I fell into depression and started drinking."Wtf.I should try that sometime.Go set fire to my school and in Junivile Court:"Let the defendant arise to the stand.Alright.Why did you commit such a henious act of vandalism?""Oh Your Honor,my hamster died last night and I really couldn't stand the feelings brewing inside of me.Oh please forgive me.""What?Your hamster died?Alright that's a valid reason.You're free to go!And don't worry about transport you can use one of our armoured trucks.Here,catch the keys!"Shit.That'd be cool
meeting farah soon. dunno waht we'll be doing later. play pool farah? =)
7:51 PM :D
hi every one! Christina is back with her blog! sad to say that diar-x has already closed down. was lazy to create a new blog. but since im so free, i might as well create one so. WELCOME every one :D
7:46 PM :D